This was made SEP 25, 2015. It was in drafts so I am publishing today.
So I have a guy by the name of “leavin’ me” in my phone. He’s the one that makes me feel good about myself and I can’t be mad at him very easy. He’s cute as an added bonus. 🙂 But he tells me no. I’ve only known him for 2 weeks. I’m scared though. Of reliving the past. He went from seeing me like EVERY day to disappearing for 3 days to coming back again and then saying he has to leave and can never stay the night. He still lives with his parents. That kind of stuff tends to complicate things. I am not one to judge or anything, but we already have sex every time he comes over, why can’t I wake up with him in my arms? is that so much to ask? Maybe I’m trying to be too romantic or something. I’m not sure. But he seldom texts me on his own. Maybe he needs space. I’m not really sure. I know that it kind of sucks to feel this way though. I’m lost and confused. 😦
From this, I”ve learned I need affection and someones time. Just need to know I’m their focus. It’s not like I have a big family that I’m always doing things with so I get bored. Sucks for me I guess. So It would be nice to have someone that’s kind of the same that wants someone to love them and appreciate them without having the complications of family. This guy wants to move to Colorado. Is his family going with him? i don’t think so. So what exactly is the deal? Is he going to pack his family in a suitcase with him? lol. Guys are such complicated mysteries. Nonetheless. I’m not going to hold my breath much more. When he decides he likes me enough to move to the next step, that’s great but until then, I have a LOT of free time and nothing to do. Except tear down mormon storage in my house. Haha. 🙂 Good times.
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