Someone Tells It Like It Is

First of all, I just want to say my posts are random as hell!!!! But it’s not for an audience, this is more like my random ass journal and place to vent. Now to the story.

Rachel wrote this wonderful article Does ‘We’re Exclusive’ Mean You’re Boyfriend/Girlfriend? Probably Not. There are kind of stages in dating that I have a feeling most people don’t understand. I view it as dating; exclusive dating; boyfriend, husband. So dating is just meeting a bunch of random guys and see if you even click. It can also mean free dinner for the guy (myself) that doesn’t like to pay to eat out but will gladly keep the kitchen full at home (good thing for him if he stays with me).

Exclusive dating to me is “I am too insecure to know you are dating others, so if you wouldn’t mind exclusively date me, it will make me feel better and we can see where things go”. This works best for me. Then of course boyfriend. I shouldn’t be questioning “us” if we are boyfriends. That being said, those three stages make it easier for just about everyone.

It breaks relationships in today’s world to not have that exclusive dating stage.  Marriage is just a glorified boyfriend (in some cases, it could be just legalized gay marriage, lol). People get married because of that and they are looking for sex…. that is not what marriage is. Makes me angry.

So that’s my random thought of the day and how I feel the dating process works. I’m sure everyone has a different opinion of it in one way or another.

OFF TOPIC: The semester is almost up and I have finished everything but one test and the finals. I’m nervous but hopeful I will do well. Grade is currently 95% in each class. 🙂 Then next semester starts in August 20, 2014. 😦

Still Going

Alright, so all those guys I had previously been talking to have pretty much mellowed out and I’m down to basically nobody. Which is fine because that’s where I wanted to be. Truth is though that it gets kind of old wishing for something that may never exist. Something so stupid as the thought of a ring on the finger can really bring some painful tears.

Aside from that though, taxes are done and I just need to register for Fall semester pretty quick. That’s a pain in the ass though working an 8-5 job every day. I paid my dad the 6k. Am I going to get something out of this life I wonder? I would love a happy relationship or something with a guy that’s not more than a decade older than I am. lol. I have bad feelings about how things are going to go based off of how they have gone. But somehow for some silly reason, I’m still looking and still hoping. Such a love sick puppy I am.